You carried me by Building 429
I’ve been so busy
I missed the reasons
I missed Your love
and I nearly missed it all
Still You’ve held me
And You’ve healed me
You’ve given all
And it brought me to Your cross
And I stand only because
You’ve given me grace to walk
Only because
You carried me
You carried me
You carried me through it all
And I believe
Yes I believe
You’ll carry me all the way home
Cause mercy covers all
I know the scripture
I’ve known the songs
I sang the words
from my hollowed heart
But You’ve spoken softly
Through the storm
I’ve heard Your voice
and I’ve felt the calm
I stand only because
You’ve given me faith to walk
Only because
You carried me
You carried me
You carried me through it all
And I believe
Yes I believe
You’ll carry me all the way home
Lord I know that you love me
I’ll never doubt it
I can’t live without it
Your mercy has found me
I am astounded
I can’t live without it, oooh
You carried me, You carried me
You carried me through it all…
You carried me
You carried me
And I believe
Yeah I believe
You’ll carry me all the way home
Cause mercy covers all
Mercy covers all
Yeah, yeah
And I believe
Came back from homegroup today feeling angry and mad yet not knowing the reason for my anger. Obviously, like the horrible me I am, I put it out on my parents, my dad in particular and become totally insensitive and ignorant to everyone that crossed my path. I didn’t even try to be nice to the people at homegroup.
Well, started crying when I went into my room. I guess all the anger just turned into the hurt. I realise that anger is often just a cover up for what is going on inside. You don’t want others to see that weakness inside so you pretend you are tough and strong and turn it into anger.
Anyway, I just cried and cried (angrily) and just kept putting the blame on others although when I analysed it, most of the anger was caused by my own insufficiency and just the sinful nature of my. My bad temper, mood swing, sulkiness.
I always feel reluctant to on the radio nowadays mainly because my relationship with God is pretty bad and I kinda want to avoid Him… and somehow Christian music seem to draw His presence. I just wanted to be proud and avoid the truth i guess.
Well, anyway, this time I turned on the radio and put on Building 429’s CD and somehow, God came. And as the song ‘You carried me’ played, I just sudddenly fell to my knees and realised deep down inside that truly it was and is Jesus who carried and carries me through all the while. I was suddenly humbled and realised that with the way I am ( the mood swings, emoness, fear, knack of spoiling my relationship with others, almost anti-socialness) I could never have got through unless Jesus was carrying me. All that is good that happened could never have happened without Him carrying me. My outburst at homegroup just proved my insufficiency and the fact that I can’t do it myself. That I can’t be good on my own, no matter how hard I try.
I was humbled, and I cried and this time, there was so much more relief, like a burden let go. I know i can trust Him in everything. God is so faithful yet so forgiving. Even when I was avoiding Him, He was carrying me always. And when i turned back, realizing my weakness, all He offers is His forgiveness.
“Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends.”
No greater love there is than that shown by Christ.
Love You Jesus and thanks for carrying me through it all.
